Sunday, December 25, 2011

What a December...

Trust? Hope? Love?
Yea sure whatever. 
Yes. Totally. Forever.

Merry Christmas everyone.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

and i will praise Him

"But each day the Lord pours his unfailing love upon me, 
and through each night I sing his songs, 
praying to God who gives me life." Pslam 42: 8

Monday, November 14, 2011

Music Monday: Bon Iver

It's a bit of a contemplative week for me and I find myself writing more than usual. Not in my blogs but I'm trying to finish a story that I've been working on. It's been in progress for a year actually and I haven't gotten far. But this week, I'm inspired. I always need a good song or a certain picture or a phrase of sorts to get me going. Sometimes it's even a good conversation that kick starts those creative juices.

This time round, I have Bon Iver to fuel me up. Go read up about the band. There's a pretty cool story of how the name came about. Bon Iver's kinda poetic to me. I discovered it a few years ago and it's my go-to band when I'm in that melancholy state. It doesn't happen as often these days. But it's a good balance of ups and downs.

Right now, it's helping me write so maybe, hopefully I'll finish this piece by Christmas.  :)

Friday, November 11, 2011

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Switchfoot - Restless

OWh what a birthday gift! New Switchfoot video!


I am the sea on a moonless night
Calling falling, slipping tides
I am the leaky, dripping pipes
The endless, aching drops of light

I am the raindrop falling down
Always longing for the deeper ground
I am the broken, breaking seas
Even my blood finds ways to bleed

Even the rivers ways to run 
Even the rain to reach the sun
Even my thirsty streams 
Even in my dreams

I am restless, restless, restless
Looking for you
I am restless
I run like the ocean to find your shore
Looking for you

I am the thorn stuck in your side
I am the one that you left behind
I am the dried-up doubting eyes
Looking for the well that won't run dry

Running hard for the other side
The world that I've always been denied
Running hard for the infinite
With the tears of saints and hypocrites

Oh, blood of black and white and grey
Oh, death in life and night in day
One by one by one
We let our rivers run

I can hear you breathing
I can feel you leading
More than just a feeling
More than just a feeling

I can feel you you reaching
Pushing through the ceiling
Til the final healing
I'm looking for you

Until the sea of glass we meet
At last completed and complete
Where tide and tear and pain subside
And laughter drinks them dry

I'll be waiting
All that I aim for
What I was made for

With every heartbeat
All of my blood bleeds
Running inside me
Looking for you 



Today I celebrate my 28th year of existence.

It's been a somewhat contemplative year where life has taken almost every sombre moment and turned it around. It's not like I've been a shining rainbow on speed but it's left me much more appreciative of the people and things around me. Many a day, I wake up and I choose 'Happy'.

If I had to choose one word to sum up the year, it would be refreshing. After 27, life sped on and turned amazing. Sure there were glitches and down days and simply awful things and memories, outgrowing of things and lots of rainy days but amazing things still happened in the year of 27.

The year of 28 feels NEW.  It's like a clean slate and miles and miles of hope. Today I celebrate my last year of single-hood. It's supposed to be a milestone which I'm writing down to remember. I know it's just a number and people stop counting and stop remembering birthdays after 21 or so. But I'm honoured to be given 28. I'm thankful The Big Guy has blessed me with 28.

I'm excited about 'NEW'. From newly-wed to new house to new memories, new shoes, new places, new spaces and renewed creativity. 28, you look amazing already!

Friday, October 21, 2011

I am a girl, gonna capture the world

I Am A Girl - The Girls With Glasses Theme Song from The Girls With Glasses on Vimeo.

I just adore this video!

a little escape

I've been away for two days on a paradise island where the blues are bluer than blue and the greens a melodic hue. A place where the sky meets the sea which meets the sand, and the day begins with tiny drops, a light shower from the carefully shaped  clouds in the bright blue sky.

After all that, the view of clusters and clusters of tall grey buildings with their rows of glass windows as I drive into KL startle me with its horrid sight. I still have a love-hate relationship with the city.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Music Monday: Wilson Phillips

I just watched 'Bridesmaids' and I absolutely loved it! Hold On was one of the songs in the movie and they even got the real Wilson Phillips trio to appear in a cameo and perform in there!

Wilson Phillips is an American vocal group that consist of the two Wilson sisters Carnie Wilson and Wendy Wilson and their friend Chynna Phillips. They were actually the best-selling female group in 1990!

An awesome fact found in Wiki is that the Wilsons are the daughters of Brian Wilson from The Beach Boys while Phillips' parents are from The Mamas & the Papas.

Hold On was probrably the most memorable song from them and I surprised myself when I jumped in and started singing along when it was played in the movie! Gosh the 90s.... I guess there were some good stuff from then. I'm gonna try and unearth a few more gems from that era. :D

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Sporadic whites

From brown to black to brown to red and plum to copper to blond to silver and white...

Boy do I hate growing old. Ugh.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

silently watch, listen, weep

Sometimes you watch a film that is made to break your heart and you still yell at it in surprise when it does. You swear you never want to feel ripped apart and contorted again, but you take another peek. You still seek out such films - the one that tugs at all the wrong strings.

Somehow they understand you. You relate to that broken, heart wrenching film. It leaves you exposed. Emotions laid bare and feeling unfound. A piece of you discovered but not claimed. Because no one experiences a movie in the same way.

Much like stories. You picture it, experience it, read it, somewhat, differently.

Much like music and songs. Like the one that repeats itself and you do not have the heart to turn it off for it is hauntingly beautiful.

The piece that makes you feel owh so sad, but wait, still...wait... it's beautiful.

Loop it.

Someone must have found joy when writing something so downright sad. Right?

Monday, September 19, 2011

Music Monday: Green River Ordinance

Discovered Green River Ordinance awhile back and i sooo love this song. They are an American rock band from Fort Worth, Texas and their name refers to laws which prohibit door-to-door sales unless the house's owner gives permission to do so.

Didn't know there were such laws around. *shrug*

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

the Story

I've begun reading Donald Miller's A Million Miles in a Thousand Years and it's really engaging me to 're-read' and 're-write' my own stories.

I first picked it up cause I've been reading his blog and really liked the way he writes. So when I saw the book on sale at the amazing Popular book fest, I knew I had to own a copy!

The book basically talks about his success, failure and his life falling into a lull when along comes an opportunity to write a film based on his book about his life. While planning the narrative for the fictional character Don, he confronts the unremarkable and dull nature of his real life.

Can you imagine your life being made into a movie? Would it be worth watching? Would your story be engaging/powerful/dramatic/funny/memorable?

Before one can begin to write a story you'd probrably want to know what a story is. The book defines a story as, “A character who wants something and overcomes conflict to get it”.

He pens his journey in a highly entertaining manner and he's one author where words just come alive and poke and prod you along the way.

It’s a hard book to put down and I'm only halfway through but it sorta pushes you to think and make better choices, face up to some conflict, face your fears and live better stories.

So hey, what kind of stories are you writing today?

Monday, September 12, 2011

Music Monday: The Weepies

I've been wanting to feature The Weepies for awhile now. But I couldn't pick which song I liked best. They are an amazing indie pop-folk band fronted by singer-songwriters Deb Talan and Steve Tannen. Their music has been described as "subtly intoxicating folk-pop" and I'm not gonna argue with that.

They're my go-to music when I want to just unwind and daydream for a bit.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Tuesday's Threes

In an attempt to be more observant, this is a Tuesday segment dedicated to the world around me. I'll be observing three things which are interesting and bringing them to life here, so you can imagine with me.

I pass you everyday as we walk to work in opposite directions. You always look so chic with the cigarette in your hand and your sunnies with your hair neatly in a band, whispy strays blowing softly framing your square jaw as you walk with a bounce. You put together gorgeous rockable outfits straight out of Polyvore or Chictopia. You are hands down the best dressed LadyBoy I have ever seen in my life.

You walk out of the big glass doors I usually check my reflection in. Smiling, you adjust the waist band of your pants and look up catching my eye in the process. Your smile is quickly replaced with an awkward sheepishness I can't quite comprehend. You speed walk away down the street. Pretty fast for a man with your physique. Looking up at the signboard of the building you just exited I realise, "Owh...whore house."

Hello girls you seem a little lost. Map in hand you glance about the bustling streets contemplating which route to take. As I approach, you look helplessly at me wondering if this person would understand despite the babel. I'm sorry I don't speak Russian but sign language and short key words work just as well. MRT? Bukit Bintang? Dear traveller you have arrived! I hope you managed to navigate your way around this crazy city and enjoy the confusion of voices and other sounds.

Monday, August 22, 2011

Music Monday: Flight of the Conchords

New Zealand-based comedy duo, Bret McKenzie and Jemaine Clement are from Flight of the Conchords and they're crazy hilarious!

Awesome way to kick start your week!

Sunday, August 21, 2011


I've never really been a good sleeper. When I was about four or five I used to wake up in the middle of the night with panic attacks. And I'd scream and scream till my mom came and got me and put me back to bed. That happened every night till one day they figured it was asthma and maybe my panic attacks were caused by me not being able to breathe.

But the whole 'waking up in the middle of the night' thing never really went away. The panic attacks are minimal but I'm twenty-eight years old these sleepless nights are beginning to show.I have these dark rings and perpetual stoned look... should I start to panic?

"What are the things that keep you up at night?," my friends asked but I don't really know though. All I know, is when I sleep, I dream about zombies, snakes, wedding nightmares (this one deserves a whole post of its own), murder, quests, puzzles, death, giant robots and a whole bunch of other weird adventures go on in my sleep.

I know dreaming is normal, but I absolutely HATE it! I tend to wake up exhausted! And if I wake up in the middle of the night, I'd then proceed to try and decipher that stupid dream to try and make sense of it, losing another precious hour of much-needed sleep.

Sometimes I wake up literally to solve a problem be it with a design element I couldn't get right, or look for something I couldn't find earlier. I used to wake up to write some weird phrase or rhyme cause apparently I was songwriting in my sleep. Or sometimes I'd lie awake for a few hours and doze off just before my alarm rings! Yippee! 20 Minutes! That's just great!

Oy Vey! Just go back to sleep already!!

My colleagues think it's stress and my mom thinks I just need to pray before going to bed. See I have so many genius' in my life. Tell me something I DON'T already know people!

So anyhoo, back to this sleeplessness, what's a girl gotta do to get a good nights' rest?

Well Google tells me that it's normal to wake briefly during the night. Most people don't even remember waking up. But here's what I've got to do to to get back to sleep:
  • Stay Out of your head
  • Make relaxation your goal, not sleep
  • Do a quiet, non-stimulating activity
  • Postpone worrying and brainstorming
Falling asleep is easy. It's staying asleep that's hard. What I wouldn't give for a solid eight hours of non-interrupted REST.

le sigh....

Friday, August 19, 2011


I still absolutely love

I sometimes wish I had stuck with advertising instead of pursuing publishing/writing. But hey, I'm glad I've dipped my hands in both. I'm sure there's still a whole bunch of things I've yet to try. Life's gonna be an incredible journey once you decide to just step out of the shade and enjoy the sunshine.

Or I might just write greeting cards cause sometimes, I reach new levels of corny.


Monday, August 15, 2011

Monday, August 8, 2011

Music Monday: Singin' in the rain

It's shaping up to be a pretty good week! I love Mondays that kick off with good news.
I'm reminded of this tune today:
I can't embed the video it but do check it!

Debbie Reynolds, Gene Kelly and Donald O'Connor what a perfect way to kick start the week!

And of course Foo Fighters on Lollapalooza streamed live on YouTube! That was my dose of morning coffee.

Cheers to a great week ahead of you!

Monday, July 25, 2011

Music Monday: Kye Kye

Kye Kye is an ambient band composed of the Estonia-born Yagolnikov siblings. Now I don't usually enjoy ambient music but I was intrigued after reading their interview on

The part that got me was when Tim said, "We always say it's not about creativity, it's about how well you listen. For this new album, we've spent less time actually trying to write songs, and trying to come up with concepts and ideas to write about, and how to best explain what we're experiencing. Instead, we've spent more time with God and getting to know who He is, and what that relationship looks like."

Some of the best songs are taken from the bible and as I stumbled upon Kye Kye's tumblr I saw a post which hopefully opens you up to a whole new outlook about song writing. :)

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Experimental Worship

Ever since attending a design and movement class in university, I've been intrigued by the effect that music has on us and our movement. This probrably falls into Futurism but I'm not doing a study on art periods but rather seeing art as a worship form.

The Futurists practiced in every medium of art, including painting, sculpture, ceramics, graphic design, industrial design, interior design, theatre, film, fashion, textiles, literature, music, architecture and even gastronomy. Now who's to say that all that could not be grounds for experimental worship?

Put a song on loop then start painting!

Sounds simple enough, but how much of it is you being led by the music and how much of it is just you commanding an artpiece? Are we led by the atmosphere or by strong emotion?

There was another class which I thoroughly enjoyed too - Rhythm and Movement. That one was particularly freeing and I learnt a lot about myself in that class. I think actors and performers use that to get warmed up and after watching "The Kings Speech" I know it helps in many other areas of life too!

I'm not very open with movements though. Flexibility isn't all there is to movement and I hold back a great deal. I'm often afraid to express. There's a lot impressed upon my heart but I hold back from expressing wide strong movements except in the confines of my home. Even then I am restricted by space.

I often dream of white wide empty space where I'm able to wildly express myself with colour and grace. Would I dance with such abandon? Would I paint? or design? Or write epic poetry? I don't quite know yet. All I feel is this unexplainable need to express in EVERY way I know.

I've grown since my days as an alpha student. And I've taken the lessons learnt in those movement classes and sort of experimented with it a little. From outward expressions of inward angst I've grown to channel these emotions positively. I write to express what spoken words fail me. I dance to express the emotions that reside within me. And sometimes I paint when I need that calm to just envelope me.

I'm a firm believer that creative gifts are God-given and we are to work on it and grow with it and make this small talent morph into something beautiful and tangible.

Above wanting these gifts to grow, I hope I'll find my wide empty space where all these become possible. A place where talent meets media meets medium. I'm no singer, songwriter, artist and neither am I a fully-published writer so I'm sure I'll still fall short, and I'm sure that there are those who can do a whole lot better and there are those who would mock my feeble attempts at 'art'.

But here's where I'll need to rise above the fear and take charge of that Dream. Actualise the desire to just go out and full-on worship my God.

Monday, July 18, 2011

The nudge


Every so often as i sit at my desk at work, reading news reports and mommy blogs, or writing a piece for our website, i feel like i'm being nudged. Sometimes it's a wave of dizziness like the kind felt during tremors or small earthquakes and sometimes it's as if someone's just walked past me and bumped into my chair, while at other times it's like some force of unfelt and unheard wind has just knocked into me.

I look up from my notebook screen and it takes a while for my eyes to adjust and see things clearly. And then i look around the office to see if anyone else felt that too.

Was anyone else rudely shaken out of their routine work of designing, editing or writing. Did anyone else have their daytime reverie interrupted by unseen forces.

Of course it's most-likely my imagination. My blood sugar probably dropped hence the light-headedness. Or maybe my chair has gotten a little rickkety.

Well recently when 'the nudge' happened, I looked up and I saw this poster I have on my cubicle wall. It's a print from workisnotajob and it simply says one word - Dream.

Now "Dream" is a word that brings all kinds of meaning to me. Seeing it pinned up big and bold jolted me out of my reverie more than 'the nudge' did. I had almost forgotten all about it.


The stuff which maketh the future.

Ok not exactly but you know what I mean. Dreams are that which kinda help you along the way. It gives you a picture and encourages you to fill in the details and write the story to.

“Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you.” - Marsha Norman

Have you come to a place where Dreams have become inevitable. It's like a snowball effect of dreams where one takes shape into another and then another. And what started out as this miniscule idea just morphes into this project of giant proportions.


Sometimes I don't think we do enough of it. Sometimes I think 'the nudge' was a dream tugging at my heartstrings. Willing me to get up and get going. Chase that which seems unatainable right now. Pursue that which I know I can do.

And so... I dream and I continue to write that which my dreams have placed upon my heart.

And after I've given my all, I know there'll still more room for dreams.

Music Monday: Jon and John

I felt shitloads of excitement when i saw this pop up in the Land Of Broken Hearts site awhile back.
There's Jon Foreman of Switchfoot and Johnny Rzeznik of Goo Goo Dolls - one of my all-time favourites. I was pretty obsessed with them in high school. Like, poster and song lyrics plastered across my wall kinda obsessed. heh. It's awesome that after all these years, he's still so hawt and that song still managed to turn me to mush. :D

Monday, June 13, 2011

Music Monday: Lemolo

Today I'll introduce you guys to Lemolo. They are a pop-folk duo from Seattle, Washington, United States. Lemolo consists of two very talented women - Meagan Grandall on vocals, guitar and keyboard and Kendra Cox on drums and keyboard. They are currently working on recording their first full length album which they plan on releasing in the fall of 2011.

I discovered the band via KEXP which is also coincidentally my most favourite YouTube Channel. That's probably where the bulk of my time disappears to. I spend WAAYYYY too much time on that channel.

I love the song "Letters" so check it!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

paint party

We've been pretty busy over at our home which I will fondly refer to as (BK). Can't think of an appropriate abbreviation for it just yet. Bubbly Kisses? Buns in a Knot? ahh... next time..

While I'm busy making a mess, my mom's packing for her great big European escape. She was last in London when she was in her early twenties. So now at 59, she's all excited to be going back!

My sister has also been busy, dipping her fingers in paint. She was recently commissioned to draw a mural at an office space.

Here she is hard at work

One wall almost done.

And this one's a fun mural for Miss Sheena's bedroom. :D
Psst: She's available for hire. Her work I mean. She can jazz up any space you want just buzz for details.

Monday, June 6, 2011

project weekend: pom poms & paint

I had a little break last weekend and I managed to catch up on some projects I had lying around.

I love paper pom poms so I'm gonna try and make a whole lot more for this wedding I'm planning in two weeks!

I was also really inspired by Jen Ramos of Made By Girl. I really loved her lipstick dots print and decided to make one of my own!

Only I used nail polish instead of acrylic. :D

A little bit of OPI, L'oreal and Elianto!

Friday, May 27, 2011

Friday loves

I'm so lovin' the Editor's wishlist on Matchbook Mag. I'm having a pretty flower power week and truly appreciating Chinese-French inspired decor, like this awesome gallery on Luscious.
Which reminds me, I need to flower-up my place this June!
We're celebrating a whole string of weddings which might probably lead to an overload of wedding loves. :D


Tuesday, May 17, 2011


Today, it suddenly dawned upon me that by this time next year, I'd be waking up and instead of hearing my mom pottering about the kitchen, I'd be the one toasting bread and making coffee for the man who would be a permanent fixture in my life.

It's a strange thought. One which I've for the longest time refused to think about. I said YES in February, and then folded the BIG M and tucked it neatly into a box. It was perhaps fear of the unknown or apprehension about the whole idea. Or maybe it was just a fleeting feeling that there's so much yet to be done. So I hit pause.

But today, I took a peek at it. I took the idea of marriage out of that box, unfolded it and I looked at it long and hard.

Today, it didn't scare me. It looked right back at me and winked. And I hugged it.

The Big M is now pinned to my mirror. Everytime i look at it, I'm reminded of the sappy yet utterly beautiful poem by Ludwig van Beethoven - Immortal Beloved.

And so on a bright sunny day next year, I will gather myself and echo him saying ever thine, ever mine, ever ours.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Music Monday: Lykke Li

Music Monday today will feature Lykke Li. I think I've featured 'I'm Good. I'm Gone' on one of my other blogs before. There's just something about her. Jason doesn't care much for her and laughs everytime I play her videos but ...pfftt.... whatever.

Her second studio album 'Wounded Rhymes' is out and it's got this sad, melancholic sorta feel about it. You should totally check out 'Sadness is a Blessing' directed by Tarik Saleh. It sorta captures the whole mood of the album.

My absolute favourite track is 'Love out of Lust'. Not a normally likeable title for me but, the song's pretty cool. :)

Check it!

Saturday, May 14, 2011


i wonder when it is
people stop trying....

Monday, May 9, 2011

Music Monday: Future of Forestry

Future of Forestry is an ecclectic Christian rock band from San Diego California.

They were previously known as Something Like Silas which consisted of a husband-wife team but unfortunately their marriage fell apart and after some time, Future of Forestry was born.

The name "Future of Forestry" is taken from a poem of the same name by British author C. S. Lewis.

I'm sooo glad Eric Owyoung didn't quit the scene alltogether. He's just so mighty talented and his songs are just so full of emotion.

They're on Twitter @forestry so do check them out!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Life List #8: Switchfoot in KL!

ok i'm not really over the concert yet. hehe.
But here's my article that's up on Yes World: Switchfoot raises a storm in KL

UPDATE: I've reproduced the article here cause it's been taken off the site

 Switchfoot raises a storm in KL

San Diego-based rock band Switchfoot returned to Malaysia on May 1st as part of their 2011 Asian tour of their latest album, "Hello Hurricane". The guys were last in Malaysia in 2008 in what was described as 'one of the best live shows in Malaysia!'
Armed with the knowledge of Things not to do at a Switchfoot concert  we were geared to have the best night of our lives despite the storm brewing in the heart of KL.
Opening for Switchfoot was upcoming Malaysian band Bus Company which stood their own and got the crowd charged up for the main act.
Switchfoot – comprising Jon Foreman (vocals/guitar), Tim Foreman (bass), Chad Butler (drums), Jerome Fontamillas (keys/guitar) and Drew Shirley (guitar) – has sold over 4.4 million albums in its career. The band released three independent records before its breakthrough album, The Beautiful Letdown (2003), which was certified multi-Platinum.
Each of the band’s subsequent studio albums –Nothing Is Sound (2005), Oh! Gravity (2006) and Hello Hurricane (2009) – debuted in the Top 20 of The Billboard 200 and elicited critical acclaim. The Best Yet, the group’s first-ever greatest hits collection, was released in November of 2008.
While The Beautiful Letdown became an anthem for a generation of fans to leave a life of complacency, Switchfoot’s seventh studio album Hello Hurricane, encourages fans to live for something beyond themselves. The album received a Grammy Award in 2011 for the Best Rock Gospel Album.  Switchfoot is now in the process of recording a new album, Vice Verses, which is expected to be released this summer.
Switchfoot raised a storm at Dewan Mutiara in Kuala Lumpur with their performance on Labour Day. Opening with The Sound, the band went on to playing Stars and Gone which saw the entire venue rocking to every beat. Your Love is a song and Awakening drew people to sing-a-long and the voices never ceased throughout the show.
"We asked you guys on Twitter what you wanted to hear and we got requests for some old school stuff," said lead singer Jon Foreman which resulted in the band playing favourites like Meant to Live, We Are One Tonight and Learning to Breathe.
In a truly heartfelt moment, Jon said he was overwhelmed  with the love from Malaysia and it felt a lot like home, before starting into This is Home which was featured on the soundtrack of The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian.
The entire Switchfoot experience was almost a spiritual one especially when they performed Always and the energy from the crowd seemed to rise with every song. When the band left the stage, the crowd cued in the intro to Hello Hurricane and Switchfoot returned for the encore with thesong from their latest album. Only Hope, Dare You to Move and The Shadow Proves the Sunshine rounded up a truly fantastic, hope-fuelled evening.
Switchfoot left vowing to return and from their Tweets, we hope it'll be soon!
@JonForeman: “We love you Malaysia, thanks for an incredible night! You're beautiful- thanks for lifting up your voices with ours!”
@Switchfoot: “Wow. The mighty KL was a force to be reckoned with. One of my favorite crowds of the tour! We love you KL, -Tim”

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Switchfoot - KL

Awesome video Michelle managed to take at the KL leg of the Switchfoot Asian tour. This is one of my all-time favourites!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

midnight musings

succinct song titles make up a poem of sorts.

We dared to move and learned to breathe
and then there was Only Hope
no longer 24
not Incomplete
we looked at the Stars

Turning everything over, cause living is simple
I'm more than fine, you're not the mess of me
The shadow proves the sunshine
The Sound of the fatal wound
The Setting Sun, owh what a Beautiful Letdown

you're Home
we are one tonight,
so long and Goodnight Punk.

* can't ever go wrong with Switchfoot.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

what if...

what if...

they were right, he was wrong
try as i might, push on head strong
fought the fight, bruised left and right
heart in hand, run as far as I can
Only then can i comprehend
but it still does not make sense
never does
never will
make it end?


what if...

i was right, they are gone
was it wrong? you're no where to be found
i choke, i fear, you're still not here
heart in hand, i offer you to mend
I'll soon understand
all's not within my plan
never was
always is
hope - just around the bend.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Music Monday: Switchfoot

Okok I know they're not new and 'undiscovered' or 'unheard' of but they're COMING TO MALAYSIA so this warrants a post for this week. :D

Well Switchfoot hails from San Diego and consists of Jerome Fontamillas, Chad Butler, Drew Shirley, Jon Foreman and Tim Foreman.

Did you know that the name "Switchfoot" is a surfing term? According to Jon Foreman, to switch your feet means to take a new stance facing the opposite direction. It's about change and movement, a different way of approaching life and music.

That sorta reminds me of my church - 180°. Making a change - moving away from the norm and being absolutely different, radical and turning lives around! It's just amazing to be part of something that's life-changing!

A little update on Wiki is that they are working on their a studio project called Vice Verses. According to Butler, the core of the record will rest thematically in the idea of the polarity of life. A release date of June, 2011 has been tentatively set.

i'll disappear...

For the longest time... I've wished this too...

Thursday, April 21, 2011

city view

I recently moved to a window seat at The Big Corporation. No it's not a promotion or anything... they just had me move and so I did.

I get a big L-shaped table, and I inherited two file drawers and a 6-tier bookcase. Behind me are HUGE glass windows which overlook Bukit Bintang and it's got large trees leaning in so there's some shade from the harsh concrete buildings that surround me. I have the blinds pulled right up so sunshine streams into the office everyday.

It's a gorgeous sight when I just take time to lean back, coffee in hand and just gaze at the busy street below.

I've dreamed about this spot for years, and I've always looked out this window from where I was sitting across the office. I'm a happy camper these days with my new space. I don't trip over stuff as much or bang my elbows or scrape my knee, at least not since i moved. *beams*

I've got a cute window ledge where two pretty vases sit. It's empty for now... *hint hint at fiance who doesn't read my blog*.

I'll post some pictures when I have the place tidied up a bit more. I'm gonna keep it neat and clean i SWEAR! My colleagues would probrably laugh at that statement. But I just deem it organised chaos. Works for me!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Music Monday: James Blake

This is so freakin amazing. I salute the sound guys for this video too man. It felt as if James Blake was singing right to me. But ahhh... James Blake... I just wanna put you in my pocket and have you make sweet music for me.

I'm still partay-ing in Borneo, so see you guys soon and I'll be back with a tan~

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Food from our Travels

There is this little bookstore tuck deep in the maze of little shops and alleys at Sg Wang Plaza which is my favourite hang out place during lunch hour.

It's basically an old magazine shop and holds heaps and mounds of treasure for those who don't mind judging books by its covers. You see, every magazine is wrapped and sealed in clear plastic so you never get to flip through it like you would at a regular magazine store.

Most of the magazines there are back issues of foreign titles from the US, Australia or Europe and are never ever found in any other bookstore. I usually pick out the ones I like, and note their titles and then rush back to Google them to see if they're worth buying.

So when I spot an issue that's two months old, it goes to the top of my list cause that's practically brand new! The best part is, what would usually cost RM28-RM40 would only be beetween RM9.90-RM15.90. That's a steal!!!

It's still a lot to pay for a magazine but I supposed it's better than waiting 10 years to buy a copy of "Best Hairstyles of 2011" for RM5 (also sold at Giant Hypermarkets)

Well today, I was browsing through the shelves and they had just been recently restocked and I stumble accross a REALLY beautiful magazine cover by Vogue Australia Entertaining + Travel.

I've never known Vogue to have an Entertaining + Travel mag so i bought it and I'm just amazed at every page! The colours, the composition, the layout, the content! I'm dying at every page turn. Gosh! IT'S BEAUTIFUL!!!!

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Spoken word poet Sarah Kay

Today this ONE video moved me. Some days, all it takes is ONE thing to totally transform you. :)

Monday, March 28, 2011

Music Monday: Little Joy

I was just poking around online and I came across this wonderful band called Little Joy. Just their name alone is pretty and they're sorta amazing!

Little Joy is a Brazilian/American rock band formed in 2007 by Los Hermanos singer/guitarist Rodrigo Amarante, The Strokes drummer Fabrizio Moretti and Binki Shapiro.

'Next Time Around' is just the perfect tune as I get ready to leave for the beach at the end of the week! :D

Sunday, March 27, 2011


I've been thinking about death a lot lately... I don't mean to sound so morbid on a sunny Sunday afternoon. But I guess that's just one of the things people think about when they're not exactly having the best of times.
I wonder what my last words would be, if i would get the chance to tell people how I feel, or who the last person I hug would be. I know that I'd give my organs away and I know all my books would be well-loved.

But I always wonder if i would have said all i needed to say, or done all that I've needed to do. I know it's something I won't ever know but it just makes me think. A whole lot more than is necessary.

After reading the secret above from PostSecret, it was like a reminder that life's too short for you to be thinking bout death. I should be doing things and not putting them off. I should meet people cause you never know what distance might keep you apart and I should always be grateful for life, cause there's only ONE of that, which The Big Guy has blessed me with.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Tuesday's Threes

In an attempt to be more observant, I'm starting a new Tuesday segment dedicated to the world around me. I'll be observing three things which are interesting and bringing them to life here, so you can imagine with me.


I was having ice-cream today and I realise, people stare when you lick an ice-cream cone. No matter how discreet I was in eating my ice-cream, people were staring! Which of course made me really self-conscious. Determined to enjoy my ice-cream, I said, "...pshaw!" and licked away.


While waiting for the train, I saw a guy - handsomely dressed, scribbling in a notebook. It wasn't a particularly grand notebook or datebook, just a regular lined notebook with dog-eared edges. Every so often, he'd pause, look far off into the distance and then as if flooded by inspiration, he'd bend over his notebook and write with speed as if he were chasing the words down from his head.


We've been having grey sky mornings for the past two weeks and when I looked out my window today, a cloud of mist had settled around us and it felt like Cameron Highlands minus the biting cold. It was a pleasant sort of cold weather coupled with a slight drizzle which made getting out of bed not too bad at all.

Monday, March 21, 2011

Music Monday: The Audreys

Its a little late in the day but I just had to share my top pick for Music Monday.
I just came across this song by The Audreys - a band from Adelaide, Australia and it's hauntingly beautiful~

They're a bit folksy and bluesy and although their earlier music sounds a little too dreary for my liking, this new album seems pretty promising!

Friday, March 18, 2011

Teenage Dream

I had this really vivid dream that I was at a wedding party and the lights went off. And suddenly the intro to Katy Perry's 'Teenage Dream' came on and my friends and I got out of our seats and started dancing... I think we were doing a Glee improv and we were singing and dancing in synchrony like we'd choreographed the whole thing.

Some people were enjoying it, while the older folks - not so much.

And then the bride and groom walks in dancing to the song too! They were doing the solos and totally nailing it. The groom actually sounded like Darren Criss in my dream.

And then I woke up. Happy. What a great start to my Friday after in incredibly depressing week. There's hope for the weekend after all!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011


My dad happens to like the author Khalil Gibran and after hearing so much about him, i decided to look him up. Stumbling across some excerpts of his work, i've picked up this one to share with you. With the number of weddings taking place this year, I think it's a beautiful piece to share :)

The Prophet by Khalil Gibran – Marriage
You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.
Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other’s cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.
Give your hearts, but not into each other’s keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other’s shadow.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Tuesday's Threes

In an attempt to be more observant, I'm starting a new Tuesday segment dedicated to the world around me. I'll be observing three things which are interesting and bringing them to life here, so you can imagine with me.


As i drive to work along the MEX expressway, I arrive at a bend which always takes my breath away. It's my first glimpse of the KL Cityscape set before cool blue skies and cotton candy clouds. At one particular spot, KL Tower lines up with Times Square and KLCC and sometimes it’s these little architectural marvels that get me excited about working in the big city.


Chivalry is not dead in this big City. Today I saw a young man offer his brolly to two of his female colleagues while he walked ahead in the pelting rain towards his office (I assume) in Bukit Bintang.


It's funny what you overhear in the streets if only you will yourself to stop and listen. A girl in an incredibly short skirt wonders aloud, "What's the difference between pink and neon pink and what's fuchsia?" to which her Goth friend responds, "Who cares... they're all colours I will not ever wear."

Monday, March 14, 2011

Music Monday: Sugarland

Now this would be the perfect theme song for my Monday morning! I sooo don't wanna be at The Big Corporation today after the lazy weekend I've had... but owhwell...

Sugarland is fast becoming my happy-feel-good band and everyone could do with a lil' bit country now and then. Sugarland consists of singer–songwriters Jennifer Nettles (lead vocals) and Kristian Bush (background vocals, lead vocals, mandolin, acoustic guitar, and harmonica).

Jennifer does this 'Shaggy' impersonation in some of her songs which i absolutely love! Check out some of their live concerts too. Looks real fun! Now what are the chances of Sugarland making an appearance in Malaysia? hmm....

Monday, February 14, 2011

On writing Love Letters

The Adams Letters

John and Abigail Adams exchanged more than 1,100 letters during the course of their courtship and 54-year-marriage and his diplomatic and presidential career. This is an excerpt from a letter Abigail wrote to John dated Dec. 23, 1782 (spellings are as in the original letter):

My Dearest Friend,

... should I draw you the picture of my Heart, it would be what I hope you still would Love; tho it containd nothing New; the early possession you obtained there; and the absolute power you have ever mantaind over it; leaves not the smallest space unoccupied. I look back to the early days of our acquaintance; and Friendship, as to the days of Love and Innocence; and with an undiscribable pleasure I have seen near a score of years roll over our Heads, with an affection heightned and improved by time — nor have the dreary years of absence in the smallest degree effaced from my mind the Image of the dear untittled man to whom I gave my Heart.

Friday, February 11, 2011

Friday laughs

This site is just filling up my Friday with barrels of laughter.

Thursday, February 10, 2011


Found via my current favourite blog :)

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Dive for Dreams

dive for dreams
or a slogan may topple you
(trees are their roots
and wind is wind)
trust your heart
if the seas catch fire
(and live by love
though the stars walk backward)
honour the past
but welcome the future
(and dance your death
away at this wedding)
never mind a world
with its villains or heroes
(for god likes girls
and tomorrow and the earth)

in spite of everything
which breathes and moves, since Doom
(with white longest hands
neating each crease)

will smooth entirely our minds
-before leaving my room
i turn, and
(stooping through the morning)
kiss this pillow, dear
where our heads lived and were.

[E.E. Cummings, ninety-five poems]

Monday, February 7, 2011


Everyone I know hates moving day. All the pre moving de-cluttering, sorting, throwing, recycling to downsize and making endless lists of "Things to Buy" and "Things to Do" before the big day is just plain axe-hous-teeing!

I've moved a total of 8 times. Well 10 if you count the two times I had to move out of my campus dorms.

Lets re-cap shall we:

BM - HB4 - BM - HB3 - Cyberia - Bangsar - Palm Spring - D'Rimba - Seksyen 6 - Puchong.

That's 10 moves in 10 years and I repeat.... it's axe-hous-teeing!!!!

Of course it's all not possible without help from some very awesome friends. And when I say awesome... I mean super-duper-amazing-type-of-califragelistic-sorta-awesome friends who help you haul all your crap in their cars and never complain when you tell them you're moving to a two flight walk-up and who never complain when you tell them the new place is one highway and two tolls away. That's how awesome my amazingly awesome friends are. I know I keep saying awesome but... THEY ARE!!!

So now here I am in my 10th home, which I share with some really loud people whom I also love very much. And I've unpacked most of my stuff and realise I need to do more of that de-cluttering cause I've just accumulated WAAYYYY too much stuff over the past 10 years and I need to let go of a lot of crap.

Hi everyone, My name is Melisa and I'm a hoarder. I have since thrown/given away 5 boxes of old junk and 3 bags of old clothes and 1 box of books, and I feel a wee bit LIBERATED. Also I feel a lil’ bit happy cause I can now close my closet nicely and I just need TWO more book shelves instead of the FIVE I initially needed to store my books. Yeay!